It's better this time than ever before

[brilligspoons]

Somewhere along the line, I don't know where, I developed an anon meme addiction. I was only peripherally aware of their existence before last month, but apparently they're now something I check a couple times a week (only two memes, I feel I should clarify that point). I know that it's an unhealthy attachment, and there have been plenty of moments where I wanted to reach through my computer screen and strangle an annoying anon. That being said, I've also read some comments and gone OH GOOD I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS THIS, etc. As with all things in life, anon memes are a mixed bag.

I suspect that my fascination with them stems from being, for the most part, out of touch with fandom opinions at large. I've spent about half my life in fandom, yes, but I so rarely interact with people outside my friends list (and many of you aren't even in my current fandoms right now, so) that I have NO IDEA what's going on most of the time. Anon memes are chock full of opinions and wank and scandal that I wouldn't have heard about until five years down the road! Plus I am not-so-secretly desperate for gossip. I like to know things! Of course, knowing things would be a lot more useful if I actually knew 99% of the people these anons are gossiping about. I don't recognize most usernames on LJ or AO3 unless I'm friends with the person, so I'm always like MAN THIS WANK IS FASCINATING but who -? (My memory is a terrible thing, friends. I remember obscure facts about The Silmarillion, which I haven't read since high school, but god forbid I be able to tell you who wrote the super amazing awesome fic I read last night.)

Anyway, all this to say I have a problem. Haven't quite reached the comment tracking point, but I don't doubt that I'll hit that in the very near future.

Uh, besides anon memes and furiously trying to finish my big bangs, I haven't been all that enamored with fandom. Like, it's a serious shift in my life that I am currently more concerned with writing than I am with reading every fic I can get my hands on. That...is probably more to do with me being dissatisfied with what my fandoms are offering at the moment than anything else. Basically a lot of people are writing things that make them happy, and that is an awesome, good thing, but personally I am not interested in any of it. SHRUG. I'll just be over here, crying over how no one is writing the stories I want to read.

And that's enough rambling. Back to work, I guess.

Comments

[paper-tzipporah.livejournal.com]

You should talk more about the stories you want to read! Talk about them UNTIL THEY EXIST! Obvs I will only write you kittenfic, but I might go nag other people to write the things you want. I am excellent at nagging.

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

GOD, JONI, WHY CAN'T YOU LET ME BE GROUCHY AND UNHAPPY. I JUST WANT TO WALLOW IN NEGATIVITY. YOU'RE NOT MY REAL MOM

I mean, it's really less that I have actual stories I want to read (though there are a few) and more that nothing I've come across has jumped out and grabbed my attention. Or the summaries sound interesting but I don't care for the main pairing or characters or whatever. Oh well. I'll survive. Plus there are a bunch of big bangs coming up, so perhaps something good will come out of those.

[tailoredshirt.livejournal.com]

What do you want to read!

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

Aaahhhhh! I don't know! I want everything! I want angsty hurt/comfort OT4 fic! I want Kono to take Catherine and Steve out dancing! I want Steve to give Grace wilderness training with bonus Danny freaking out! I want all the perfect fic ever!

Erm, yes. :D?

[tailoredshirt.livejournal.com]

I want all of these things too! Especially the OT4 and the dancing fic! The Kono/Catherine/Steve would be so adorable and/or hot. ♥ I have been wanting to write that threesome for ages but all of my ideas involve, like, actual plots and I don't have time for that. /o\ But daaaaancing, yes.

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, the Kono/Catherine/Steve is just...UGH. WANT. Kono would be all enthusiastic about it, and Steve's just like super skeptical about the whole thing until Catherine calls him a loser. I maaaaaay have given this some thought. >.> And I've sort of incorporated OT4 into one of the fics I'm working on, but I've been so busy with BBMU and some other fests that I haven't been able to devote any time to it. :(

Mostly I just stare at my computer screen and will all this fic to exist. I don't know why it doesn't work. :( :( :(

[amymccabe.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I just haven't changed with the times or I'm idealizing the past or if current stuff really just sucks but I swear better stuff came out of fandom about ten years ago.

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

I don't know that the quality is any better or worse than it has been in the past, though I'm sure it's possible. I guess it really depends on where you're looking? But then, I think you're going to find the good, the bad, and the ugly no matter where you go.

[neurotictealeaf.livejournal.com]

GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD.

Just kidding. I know it's a little chaotic in here, but at least there's coffee?

Seriously, though. I have a new-found love of stalking anon memes. And don't read nearly as much as I used to. Because nothing is exactly what I want.

But I agree with Joni! Talk about the stories you want! Because, if they're in fandoms we share, I'm always looking for people to come up with plots for me because I'm rubbish at it inspiration!

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

*sets up a cot and camper stove in your head*

It's so weird, right? Like, it's not that I love the source materials any less, and I definitely want to talk and write about them all the time! Ugh, I don't know. Things shouldn't change like this!

I will try to come up with specifics so I'm not just flailing about and screaming WRITE ME THE PERFECT FIC WHY AREN'T YOU GUYS PSYCHIC all the time. :D?

[neurotictealeaf.livejournal.com]

Eeee! Ret in my head! Yay! (Was that creepy? I'm sorry if it was. I've been writing Sherlock, so normal human boundaries are... a bit more foreign even than usual. ^^)

Oh, man. Exactly. Maybe it's because I'm/we're focusing on writing more, and so have more defined characterizations and whatnot already in place in my/our brain(s)? I DON'T KNOW AND I'M NOT SURE I LIKE IT.

Heee! Okay. :D

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

DELIGHTFULLY creepy! <3!

It's completely possible that you're right! Perhaps this much writing has given us blinders, as it were? And yeah, it's a more than a little disconcerting. Waaahhhh!

[bessiemaemucho.livejournal.com]

I feel pretty out of fandom, too. I still like writing my stories, but no one wants to read them. Which is fine, I'm writing them for me. But also I come across like, one story a month that interests me. Where are the people on the Internet who share my interests? Where are theyyyy

[brilligspoons.livejournal.com]

;___; I don't know! I'm sorry!

But yeah, I've been finding more and more that writing Things I'm Interested In has taken priority lately. Plus, there is something of a bright side to my time not being taken up by reading a lot of fic, I guess - I have so much more time to read books and comics now! :D?